She certainly has the right to vent and voice her opinion but she is not allowed to snap at me like that, I do not snap at her. If I am speaking in a harder tone than normal, it is because she has acted or said something inappropriate, I don't just snap. Yes I understand that she is nine but I am very cognitive of the fact that if I let m guard down, she will feel it is okay to be inappropriate. Luckily my Valentina is a very kind and loving individual but we all have our days.
Monday I am hoping to go sign up so that we can start exercising daily... I have been very exhausted lately, so much so that I just want to crawl into bed and sleep but of course insomnia kicks in and I don't have full night sleeps. I know, this is why I am exhausted, I am not sure how to train my body to sleep through a whole night. I used to be an amazing sleeper, I would put my head on a pillow and sleep all the way through until the morning. Ever since I took on two jobs and had very little time to sleep, my body forgot how to sleep.
I am watching David do that right now, he is basically doing two jobs right now, he has very little time for himself. Thankfully this will only last a few more weeks than he can take some time off for himself. I know that David loves his career, he is very dedicated and gives a hundred percent to his job but there has to be a balance. I learned that about five years ago when I started my new job, I had left a job where I was working sixty five plus hours a week.
It felt good to slow down and relax, I guess that is why I guard my time so much now, I appreciate the quite times I have to just read or write. I also realized that all the hours I put in for overtime, didn't really mean all that extra money, a lot of it went to taxes.... so I wasn't really winning there. What I gained from all that was I didn't take care of myself and today I am still paying for it all with the insomnia...
I just need to get my life under some sort of balance... not that it stays there but at least I want to be putting out the effort.
I cherish my past, I accept my present and I dream for my future ♥