The journey begins where you are, not where you want to be! So be here now and embrace the present moment, and all it offers. ~ Charlene Proctor
I can only start where I'm at, if I continue to beat myself up because I am not where I actually want to end up right now, I won't progress. It's like the exercise I want to be doing, I know that I'm nowhere near where I want to be, instead of stagnating, I need to take the first step. Although it will only be a baby step, soon I'll be taking giant leaps.
Going forward, starting tomorrow morning I'm going to walk the 15 minutes to the bus stop by the mall unless it's pouring rain. Otherwise I have no real excuse, just being lazy and I don't want wake up in six months and wonder where the time went.
I've procrastinated for too many years, I have no one to blame but myself (although I don't like that word blame). It really is my choice, nothing is easy in the beginning, not if we want to accomplish great things. I want my outside to match my insides.
People in my life tell me what a change I've made in a short time, this can happen for all of us, we just need to decide to start where we are. I know that sounds hard but it's simpler than we know. Being on the cleanse for almost 30 days has proven to me that anything and I mean anything is possible.
If I can give up talking to my soul mate David for 30 days (actually 40 days because of his job) then I am truly capable of anything. It hasn't been easy, he centers me and helps me to always see the best in myself. I've had to do this for myself for the past 25 days and although difficult, I carry all his words in my heart that remind me how awesome I am.
I appreciate the wonderful comments from everyone. They have helped me through this hard time without David. Honestly being without him has been the hardest part; I've done it though and grown. David will be so proud of me, he told me the night before I started that I could do this. I didn't want to disappoint him and I didn't.