Keeping My Eye On The Goal

This last week has been an emotional roller coaster... not all of it bad.  None of it easy!  Change is never simple, I hold on to the fact that difficult change brings amazing rewards.  As long as I can keep my eyes looking forward, I will succeed.

What derails me is taking my eyes off the goal and letting the pain take over.  This pain will pass.. even the deep emotional sadness... it can't last forever.  It never does... I have to reinforce that belief with myself daily... I'm worth it though!!!

I have what my doctor calls situational depression... which I suspect many of us have. I have only taken medication for it once in my life, for about a year and a half.  It evened me out but truthfully I just never really felt...  I weaned myself off them over a year ago (my doctor knows).

I remember seeing an interview with Carrie Fisher one time... she suffers from depression too.  She said she made a conscious decision to live without medications because she needed to feel.  It's the best explanation I have for why I went off them... I didn't like being a zombie... they didn't solve my problems, I just didn't care....

I believe this is a personal decision for each person and their doctor.  It's what works for me... I need to feel real and alive.  Otherwise it's all futile. I know I can be up and down and when I'm down I find it hard to see the good but I always find my way through...  If I didn't or couldn't I would see my doctor immediately. 

What helps me more than anything is writing and reading what other people are going through... the majority of you inspire me with your candidacy and open honesty.  We are all struggling and it feels so good to have other people who understand.  Reading what other people are going through, helps me keep my eye on the goal.

I cherish my past, I accept my present and I dream for my future

20 comments :

  1. This is so beautifully said and I have to tell you I LOVE LOVE LOVE the new look of your site!!!!

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  2. Thank you Milex... I really appreciate the comment :)

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  3. Thank you Marsha... it has been a long time coming for the change in my site... Another blogger Rachel helped me fix this up... I love the simplicity so much more :)

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  4. Good post! You have a very nice blog, I follow you gladly!

    xx Hily
    Life Behind a Lens

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  5. Awe thank you Hilary, I just followed you and left a message on your blog... lovely pictures :)

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  6. I've been reading and listening to Earl Nightingale for over 30 years. Another author that I love is Jim Rohn. He had a book on tapes called The Art of Exceptional Living. I listened to these tapes until I wore them out.

    I think I'd have a hard time with the medication too.
    Take care.

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  7. Thank you Rick... I need to be able to feel... medication is a bandaid for me :/

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  8. ahh i am so glad that i found your blog...it is lovely and inspirational ...love you...following you now on GFC...plz follow me back
    http://thegirlsgallery.blogspot.com/

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  9. Thank you Shafaq... of course I will look at your blog :-)

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  10. Launna you're just very inspiring! Thank you for this post, it gave me a lot of power and hope :)

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  11. I love you Susanna... thank you. You ALWAYS inspire me with the beautiful spirit that you have :)

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  12. Your right change is never easy but without change we would never ever grow :-)

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  13. Thanks Keith... so true.... change is difficult but the rewards can be wonderful...;-)

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  14. Your words are always wise and full of inspiration my sweetheart!
    Xxx

    Carolina

    www.the-world-c.blogspot.com

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  15. Awe thank you Caolyne... you are such a sweetie .... ;-)

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  16. nice posting launna.im here visit again :Dhave a nice day

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  17. Hi Wawa... thank you... you're a sweetie ;-)

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