I am seeing things changing slowly around to my direction... I cannot believe how crystal clear some changes are becoming... all of which gives me hope that how my life is now, is not how it will be... I really needed to learn that. I had lost that belief... it was always there.
This change in me has happened because first I found out something that made me smile and that cannot be taken away... it's out there... I know the truth... Second there's hope where I was unable to see any and third I will be good with the outcome either way... see the first reason.
I found out that I am in the drivers seat.. I always was... now I know it. That feels amazing... I guess I had to think I lost it all to appreciate it and to find I never really lost it at all.. Life might not be exactly as I hoped it would be at this very moment in time... it's not as far off as I had originally thought.
The deep sadness and fear I had filled me and the ways I dealt with it stopped me from seeing what was directly in front of me. I talked about how I needed and wanted to live in the present but until I saw that one sliver of light... I was living in the past and looking for the future.When I live like that, I cause myself unnecessary emotional pain. It feels do good to be clear and to know that all I have to do is live in this moment and the future will take care of itself.
I cherish my past, I accept my present and I dream for my future ♥