Here is the funny thing I told my sister today, I don't even miss that type of food that I used to eat. I went to the grocery store today and when I walked by the food I used to eat, I did that... I walked by it... I didn't look at it longingly... I don't even think about that type of food, I am always thinking about any food I eat, wondering about the calories and what is in it? and if it is good for me?... I have people telling me that eventually I will miss the old food... I don't think so, it has been five weeks and I don't feel deprived. Whenever I went on a 'diet' before I felt restricted... I missed the food... this is not a diet I am following, this is a lifestyle change that I am loving and living.
My mood is still somewhat the same, however; I am just putting all my effort into walking... I am not allowing myself to wallow. I can't go back to that, I want to move forward... I turn the big 50 on Tuesday... I am actually excited! I am getting my hair colored and I am getting a thick strand of hair colored violet... I will put pictures up once I get it done. I have been wanting to do this for a couple of years and I never seem to have the money but I am doing it regardless, this a big birthday for me, it only comes around once. I am also going to get a small heart tattoo but it looks like that will have to wait until I get my bonus in August. It is something I have wanted for a couple of years, it won't be anything large or flashy, just a cute little heart tattoo.
This is more of a catch up blog since my mood hasn't changed a whole lot and I just don't want to write sad things right now... I have been keeping up with everyone's blogs even though I haven't been writing... I have written many in my head but at the moment those were just to sad to put down into writing.. I have so many good things in my life to be grateful for... believe me, I count my blessings on a daily basis and I feel very lucky... unfortunately it doesn't stop the sadness but it keeps me from wallowing which is a good thing.
I cherish my past, I accept my present and I dream for my future ♥