Inspired


I don't know about how most people are inspired to write.  Usually I hear a song, read quote or learn some kind of lesson.  Right away I think, hmmm, how could I build on that?  How could I liken that to me?  What can I learn? 

Then the words flow easily, I am rarely at a loss for words.  Believe me, I can out talk most people, except for my Valentina.  As well, my David and I are pretty evenly matched when it comes to talking.  Mainly I am the person that keeps the conversation going with most other people.

I'm not sure if that's always a good thing, I really try to be self aware of other people so that I give them time to talk too.  I guess I just don't like lulls, so I fill them.  Mainly I think this all comes from the childhood I grew up in where children were seen and not heard.

I carried that shy quiet nature well into my 20's.  I was beyond shy, I almost wanted to curl up in a ball if someone looked at me or gosh forbid someone spoke to me.  That was almost the end of the world.

Anyhow when I was 25, almost 26, I made a conscious decision that I was going to put myself out there and extend myself.  No matter how afraid I was, I didn't even take baby steps.  I just started talking to anyone and everyone that interested me. 

I'm grateful that I did, I have really come to know some wonderful people.  Here's the funny thing, people that didn't know me before, have the hardest time believing I was anything but my outgoing self.  David remembers how shy I was, he said he's my proof:). 

It's amazing to me how I always seem to find a way to change my life on a dime and than allow myself to get into a state where I convince myself that life will never change.  It always does, now is no different.  Once I remembered the inspiration I had a few months ago, the one I never did anything about, I just put it all into motion.

Just like that, I'm going to follow the inspiration, see how far it takes me.  I believe it will take me as far as I want to go, it feels awesome to be back to me, to be happy, smiling and laughing.  Not that I don't still cry, I'm normal... things touch me and some memories do too.  I just remember the inspired plan I have and work on my next phase.  Wish me luck!!!


"Everything you want, also wants you" ~ Jack Canfield

18 comments :

  1. Hello Launna:
    We do, of course, wish you luck!

    It is, we feel, so important that everyone develops self confidence, self esteem and a belief in self for in that way he or she does become a responsible person with the ability to contribute to society as a whole.

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  2. And so I will wish you Luck indeed.I believe this is what is called following your True self.

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  3. Its strange, we took pretty much opposite directions in our shyness. As a kid I was outspoken and outgoing, I'd talk to anyone & didn't think a thing of it. As I grew I started to adopt cynicism and sarcasm and became more introverted in some ways. Definitely jaded. But I'm looking to get back to the days of my youth and start branching back out again to being open to the world & all its experiences.

    Best of luck on your journey too :-)

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  4. Thank you Jane and Lance, I am thankful for all the luck and positive thoughts that are sent my way.

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  5. Thank you Amit, I am totally following my true self, I am grateful I am back to her, the positive girl who believes in her dreams.

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  6. Thank you Jenn, that is interesting how we went on the opposite paths but we both turned out pretty great :)

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  7. I wish you luck with your next phase Launna, sounds exciting. It's funny how people percieve us. I was shy as a child and yet it was through circumstance of what I was being brought up in/ how I was treated. At school I was a chatterbox-great at debating then I completely changed so much so it is written in my report card from school-I stopped talking. Today people who knew me growing up still label me as shy quiet but I am not they just choose to see the old me. I am glad you feel more back to your old self. Keep talking :-)

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  8. Thanks Behind the Smile, I think people from school would be shocked at how open and friendly I am. I LOVE it, I love being me;)

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  9. I always appreciate your thoughts and can tell what an amazing person you are. Keep it up!!! ;D

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  10. Thank you Billy, I really take that as a compliment, you are such an uplifting writer;)

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  11. I wish best of luck in your walk, Launna!
    I never was shy, I was retracted. But I think you have been rather timid.
    Kisses, my beautiful!

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  12. I call it living consciously, that act of embracing your dreams and stepping up to manifest and engage them. It is always exciting, sometimes scary, and rarely boring! I have grown into myself with sometimes small steps, and other times, huge leaps. Each method of moving forward has taught me different lessons. :)

    - Dawn

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  13. You can do it Launna! You can do anything you set your mind to!! That reminds me of high school actually. Normally I was outgoing but the thought of a new school and maybe not seeing my friends as much was overwhelming then, as Scotland High School was a BIG school. So I made up my mind to be a social butterfly and that I did! I can completely relate to your beautiful post here and am sure u can handle anything!! xx

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  14. Thank you Jaqueline, I was rather timid when I was young... not so much now:)xox

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  15. Thank you Dawn, I will continually learn in different ways, it's a part of life. Never easy but always worth it:)

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  16. Thank you so much Brenda, it's so true, we can change anything... when we set our mind to it:)

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  17. I've never been shy, but I think it's great you are working to get out there and express yourself. My boyfriend is painfully shy, and sometimes it's hard to really know what he wants or needs, so I think it is important to find your voice, at your own comfort level. After all, no one deserves more than you are ready to give.

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  18. Thank you for the comment Jamie, I totally agree with you. I'm a work in progress as we all are:)

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