Being Me And Following A Prompting

I always try to be my real self, even when I feel that it's difficult to handle.  Mainly because I have no other way to be.  I've tried to cover how I feel, without success; I'm just a girl who wears her heart on her sleeve, I know of no other way to be.

Believe me if I could figure out another way, I would have, however; I can be nothing less than authentic.  I don't write everything here, if I did I would shock people.  I only tell one person everything and that of course is my 'D'.

With everything being so strained between us for the last couple of months, I've had no outlet.  It's one of the reasons I started this cleanse, I had to be real with me.  Finally, I slowly started to talk with my 'D' again, it's been good.

All day Sunday I kept feeling the need to tell my David that I loved him.  I was afraid to tell him, afraid that it would cause us problems.  I put it off, the feeling wouldn't go away.  So last night he came on line, we talked, really talked and not just about the weather.  I finally got my nerve up and asked him if it was okay to tell him that I loved him as my friend?  He sent me a smile. 

I breathed, really breathed.  No matter what happens, we're going to be okay.  That makes me very happy, I needed to know that everything was good between us now. 

I followed a prompting and it felt awesome.  I know I should follow them more but I always think I know best, I'm happy that I was proven wrong.  I never want to be less than who I am with my David.  I need to be able to be real with someone other than myself, otherwise I'll never grow to my full potential.

In less than two weeks it will be my Andrea's birthday.  I will be on Facebook that one day as I want to send her a birthday wish from me and I'm writing a post about her.  Even though she and I have issues, we are very close.  She means the world to me and I'm so very proud of her, I love her insanely.

I used to think it would be impossible to love another child as much as I loved Andrea but I do, of course I love them differently but not more than the other. I'm incredibly grateful for my two daughters, both have helped me grow and both have taught me lessons.

I'm very grateful and very lucky.


"Everything you want, also wants you" ~ Jack Canfield

12 comments :

  1. Hello Launna:
    We really do believe in the importance of being oneself. It is people who are totally genuine who one always warms to; those who are not very soon reveal themselves to be very shallow, and possibly somewhat sad, as individuals.

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  2. Thank you Jane and Lance, I can only be myself... otherwise I would be sad!

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  4. Launna, I am so glad you got that smile I was going "YEAH" when I read that. It is so important to follow those prompts but it is a risk as we doubt we heard the prompt right or is it just us but when it is a persistent prompt I tend to follow it to. We all need someone to tell all to,I think it's the way God made us. Take care and smiles :-).

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  5. I'm glad that you are focusing on being true to yourself! That is important. I agree with you in that we should all listen to that inner voice more often.

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  6. Thank you Anonymous, I will have to take a look at your blog tonight;)

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  7. Thank you Behind the Smile, what a relief it was for me, I'm so thankful:)

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  8. Thank you Dana, it's hard to know when it's right to listen, I was scared but I did it. He should know that I love him regardless of what happens, I'm glad I told him ;)

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  9. Its always so nice to get back in touch with your inner self. Trusting your own gut that you're on the right path in life is priceless :-)

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  10. It sure is Jenn, thank you for you sweet comment;)

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  11. an early happy birthday for Andrea with lots of kisses on the cheeks. And a warm hello to Valentina....they are their mamma's girls :).

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  12. My girls are wonderful despite having me as a mama/mommy. Thank you so much for your comment Petronela:).

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