Finally I flipped and told him this was not working for me, I don't know how he is going to see Valentina but it can't be with me every Saturday. I can't keep doing this to myself not even for my sweet little girl. I don't like who I am when I am around him, I just can't seem to get a handle on my emotions when he is anywhere near me. I look at him and all I can see and feel is all the nasty words he said to me for years, mostly being around him reminds me of the night he held me down and raped me.
So, I have decided there will have to me another way for Andrey to see her where I don't have to be involved. It will make me a better mama and a better person. Poor Valentina sees me when I fly off the handle and she really doesn't need to see this, she is nine years old and personally I think she has witnessed too much as it is.
I am of worth, we all are. Not one person should have to put up with being treated less than the worth that they are. I am thankful that I did learn that... finally.
"Everything you want, also wants you" ~ Jack Canfield