In the past, falling apart meant wondering if I could ever feel happiness again. Now I see that things will improve in the same day, usually the same hour. Yesterday was a little longer, I let myself fly solo down memory lane. I sometimes think it is so cruel of myself to let myself go there when I know it will bring me sadness and pain. Then I think if I don't figure out a way to deal with it, I'll never be truly happy with myself.
Today has been a better day but that's only because I didn't allow myself to think, I kept myself very busy at work. I am really grateful for work, it is challenging and it keeps my mind off my personal life which is a mess at the moment.
Also, although my house is in a massive disarray at the moment, I know the potential it has and I am truly thankful for the place I have to live. When I went apartment hunting for this place, I had written a list of what I wanted... within 2 months I found this place. Everyone said I could not find what I wanted for the price. I proved them wrong.
If I could just make my personal life work... that always hinges on other people though...
"Everything you want, also wants you" ~ Jack Canfield