Accepting ourselves is the first step of love. Only then do we allow ourselves to shine! ~ Jill Douka
I'm on my way to work, listening to music and pondering the words. I really have to redo my song list and get rid of most of the sad songs. They are not doing anything for me right now, maybe in the future I'll be able to listen to them fondly. For now I only feel sadness while listening to them, which means I'm not ready to listen to them yet.
I want to shine, I want to be all that I was meant to be so I'm going to have to change some aspects of my life to align myself with my purpose. If I allowed it, my sadness could engulf me and control my every thought. I don't want anything having that kind of control over me.
I will be strong enough to overcome each of my weaknesses and turn them into strengths. I've been weak and unsuccessful in the past because I tried to hide my flaws. I will never change those things about myself without being completely honest and open.
I need to do that with some people in my life then I'll open up here. I'm hoping that by opening myself up that I'll finally break the cycle of bad behavior and that I'll become victorious.
I've also been thinking of how I refuse to give up and grow up. I don't ever want to be a typical grandmother, I will never give into the age thing where I just give in and let myself go. Too many women give up when they hit my age and I want to ask them why? Why do they not want to look their best for themselves? I know that when I go out, I want to look my best. I don't want to look as if I don't care. Looks are definitely not everything but why wouldn't we want to look our best.
"Everything you want, also wants you" ~ Jack Canfield