I admit that in the past I was not always positive and happy but I wanted to change that, I am blessed and extremely grateful for all that I have. I have two amazing daughters, wonderful sisters, many great friends, my church, my career and David, my soul mate. How could I not be happy? That would not be gratitude.
Don't get me wrong, we all have bad days, that is a part of life but those days do not have to define us. No one and I mean no one defines my happiness, I wake up each morning and I make a decision to be happy and grateful. When things don't go the way I think it should, I am learning to handle that even better because it is so true that I don't always know what is best for me, I've had to remember there are greater forces working out there.
There were times that I did fake being happy in the beginning of my change but it honestly didn't last long. I feel lucky to be where I am in my life, I have overcome numerous challenges, many things that could have taken most people down. I didn't just survive, I thrived... I overcame my ex stepmother Ruth who did her best to make me feel like I was worthless. I also overcame my ex husbands abuse, emotional, physical and sexual, I am free of him, free to live my life the way I want to, he's not. How could I not be happy that I am free? Anyone that felt trapped and held back will know exactly what I mean.
Being free is what makes me happy, freedom brings a peace like nothing else can.
Sometimes you have to fake it til you make it. Sometimes you just have to put a smile on and face the music and sometimes it just feels right to smile and mean it.
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