There's a big day coming up for my Valentina, she's getting baptized on Saturday June 9th, she is pretty excited about it. I am grateful that she has been open to all the teachings and lessons she has received. There has been issues getting to this point but I knew there would be, there is always opposition, if there wasn't I would be concerned then. Everything is a go, just my part which is the cooking, the program and making sure everyone that is taking part is ready. I'm not stressed or anything, lol... yeah... I am but it will all come together.
I had the day off today and I didn't accomplish nearly one tenth of what I wanted to do, I just wasn't in the mood to do any of it, I spent most of day just relaxing. I sometimes shut down when I have too much on my plate, if I have too much to do, I do nothing. Not always the best answer but it seems the only way I can sometimes handle stress.
I am in need of a good long talk with David, we are supposed to talk tonight, depending on how things went with his course. It seems he is still working on it and it is getting quite late even for him. I know I am certainly looking forward to having my course completed, I know David will be over the moon once his course is done. It is exhausting for both of us for different reasons. Mine because I am working full time, I am a mama and I have my need to write. David's is because he has massive amounts of reading to do, along with papers that are due regularly and he works full time.
I honestly have no idea how people have a family, hold down a job and go to school. I am doing it but not great, I really am not organized enough. I keep putting things off which I know will come back to bite me in the behind if I don't get some control over it. Once I am free of this course, I am taking a long break from worrying about another course. I just want to relax and have fun, I want to smile and laugh... just be my happy self.
The me in the past would be freaking out that David wasn't available right now, I am not worried, he will be there, he is just very busy with his course. I will NOT add any stress on him, he has more then enough stuff happening in his life, he does not need for me to make it harder on him. He is understanding of what I need to do and I believe in him. I pray all the time for him to understand what he is learning and to pass this course.
Well, I am off to bed... tomorrow is another day and good things are on the way, I have lots of blessings on the way;)