I completed my CPA questions and assignment, wooo. Two more chapters and then the final, I'll be a really happy girl. I'm already happy, I just want the tension gone from worrying about assignments.
I even feel better about David, I'm still taking time to heal, I have to. I don't want to be crying every second day. Even though he and I are soul mate best friends; it would be tiring for him to just hear me cry or know I was sad all the time.
I know that taking this time will heal me so that I can be best friends with him. I want him in my life but I want to be happy about it, I don't want to live in the past and with the memories. The past is just that, the past.
I only have today, I have things in my life that I need to fix then we will see where the future leads. I want the whole package or I want nothing. As sad as I would be for not having romantic love in my life, I'll deal with it.
With my CPA course I haven't been able to read my blogs, I'm catching up over the weekend. I really miss reading all my blogs from my reading list. There are so many people I look forward to reading, from the fashion blogs, to the poetry one, to the life blogs.
It's funny how a day or two makes a difference. That's why when I have those sad dark moments that I remind myself strongly that there is always a light at the end of the tunnel. No matter how hard a day is, I believe things can turn around on a dime.
I just needed to get perspective, I really need to give service to others and stop dwelling in the past. That is what makes us sad; does that mean that I have stopped loving David, I'm pretty sure that won't change any time too soon. The rose colored glasses have come off though and that is good.
I still think he's amazing but I no longer sit in awe of him, he's just a human being like me. Yes he's kind, loving and wonderful; he does have his faults though, he doesn't see that I'm the best for him. Besides I told David that it's his loss, I'm awesome;). He laughed and said you ARE awesome. Anyhow , time to work on being the best me that I can be.
This weekend is going to be for me and Valentina and some cooking :). Also catching up on all my blogs. Have an awesome weekend everyone:)
"Everything you want, also wants you" ~ Jack Canfield