Have you ever known someone with you heart? You know where you can say anything to them and you feel safe that they will take it as it's intended. I've only known one person like that, my David. I can joke around and tease him, when he puts up an embarrassed face, I can call him out and say haha, you do not embarrass easily, remember I know you? lol.
When I do that he's like, yes you do know me, haha. People that don't know each other are never sure that what they say may be taken out of context. It's awesome to feel safe with someone where you know you can say anything and everything. I know there are people that have this, I was not lucky enough to have this all my life.
I always wanted it, that emotional connection where you just know and feel the other person. No words are necessary, although the words are abundant. The conversation is never boring (I'm too interesting to be boring, lol). Having someone who cheers on all your accomplishments, someone who truly loves you for you.
I realized something last night that makes me smile now. I started panicking, getting out of control; I finally gave myself a 'mindful smack' (as Mastin would say). I figured out that the closer that I get to my goals the more opposition I receive. It just shows me that I'm on the right path, otherwise I'd have no opposition.
Opposition brings rewards, the more opposition, the more rewards ;).