I've been weepy this morning, not sad just weepy. I'm on my way to work listening to my music and I heard this song 'Never thought that I could love' (Dan Hill). It instantly made me think about David; I really had never thought that I could love anyone as much as I love David. I never in my life thought I could find someone to trust all my inner secrets with.
I told David the other night that if I hadn't been so shy when I was 15, we would have been together then, he laughed and said yes, plus we would have had a dozen children:). I get pregnant easily and David loves being a daddy, he's amazing. His children adore him, Valentina likes him and she is particular when it comes to men.
You know what is difficult, when you love someone and you know that you were meant to be together and life or circumstances get in the way. I feel like packing up and moving out west to be close to David but I know that's not the answer as much as I want it to be. I have to think of Valentina, she does not need to be uprooted over and over.
I have to trust and believe that everything will work out the way it was always meant to be. Prayer has become integral in my life again, I remember when I was 15 and I started praying and I never went to sleep without doing it. I really talk to my Heavenly Father as if he was in the room with me. I know that He loves me and he wants me to be happy and He wants me to have good things in my life.
I only pray for good things, so I have to remember to leave it in His hands. Everything will work out the way it should. Stressing about it doesn't help, having faith is the only way to succeed. Well this blog is eye opening in more ways then one for me, here I was writing how I felt like running to David but knew that this was not the answer.
I saw that the blog I read 'The Daily Love' Mastin Kipp writes had arrived in my in box, I took a moment to read it and he was saying something similar to what I was writing. If I believe in miracles and I do; then I have to trust that I am exactly where I'm supposed to be and that all things will work out according to plan.
Just another answer to my prayers, no running towards what I want. Everything is exactly what it should be and it will work out the way it is meant to be. I feel calmer, not so unsettled. I'm to be an example and I don't want anything part way, I want the temple marriage that is for eternity. I want nothing less, so I will work on me to be ready.