Do you remember a time when you were really happy? You know a time where you smiled on the inside and out. It's been a long time for me. I have had some really happy moments lately but I haven't had that insane happiness. The ones I had with David through the two months of November and December in 2011. I had the most amazing holidays, I'll never forget how happy and wonderful it was. In my heart it's real <3
I love that you love me, I love that you are to there to catch me but most of all I love that you're my best friend.
I had a dream come true, my fairy tale love , my one and only. He's everything I've always wanted and now it's so hard that we are apart. Every other day I think I can't do this, I can't be only friends, I can't be without him. My emotions are on a roller coaster, I try so hard to keep myself together. I don't want to make it harder on him or on myself. I know that even if I do make it hard on him, he will be there for me no matter what. We are best friends, we are soul mates.
Yet if I really love him, I have to let him go. As painful as that will be, it is the right thing to do. Because I love him I want him to be happy, my love letter to you, even though I know I would/could make him insanely happy; he has to want that from me. No one on this earth or anywhere else will ever love him as much as I do. I am willing to let him go but we will always be best friends. Whenever I need him, he will be there and whenever he needs me, I will be there.
The truth is that no one knows what the future and the eternities hold, I have faith that everything will be as it should be.
"Everything you want, also wants you" ~ Jack Canfield