So, I have decided to just write what's in my heart and mind without over thinking it and then just publish it. I used to write poetry all the time but as time went on I became more critical of what I wrote, so I stopped.
My mind is going around in cirles
Ever trying to break down my resolve
I stand firm, not giving in
A song plays and somehow I am lost in time
Thinking of another place, one much happier
Then it's over and I am back to here
I wonder how I will get through
Even though I am stronger than I ever thought
This is different, this squeezes my heart
I had to endure all the trials I endured
So that I would be strong enough to endure this
I hope I gained enough strength from the past
If I had to choose between all my trials
Having my heart broken by you would be the last
For that was more painful that all the others
I will get through this, I always find a way
I worry more about you, will you get through
Especially once you realize what I know
That was five minutes, just basically writing from my heart without really thinking about it. I cried when I wrote this, I am going to do this a little more often, it actually feels good to write it down. I hold it in a lot more than I should and I think by sharing it, it will help me to handle it better.
This is the first real poem I have written in almost 25 years... time to make that a thing of the past.
"Everything you want, also wants you" ~ Jack Canfield