This upgrade will finally give me the time to revamp my song list, I need some happier songs to listen to on the bus. Plus I'm hoping it will give me the option to read blogs easier, it is difficult to do this on a BlackBerry and even harder to comment.
I've kind of been lost in thought for the past two days, I think I was holding my breath to get through the holidays without falling apart. I just wanted to make it a happy time for Valentina; she has those good memories.
I think New Year's was the hardest for me because a year ago I was openly in love with David and we rang the new year in with an amazing kiss... Last night we talked midnight my time, he made me laugh as usual, he's so funny. Sometimes I think it would be easier for both of us if we stopped being friends...but last night after we talked, I knew I would miss him too much if he wasn't a part of my life.
Change comes whether I like it or not, I want to learn to roll with it more and not push against it. It's usually a good thing in the long run, I need better long-term vision.
My leg is healing which is giving me hope that I'll be able to start exercising soon and this has me very excited. I know walking is about all I can do at the moment but it's a start. My body has been through a great deal the past couple of months, I want to start taking better care of myself.
I'm feeling hopeful about a great deal of things, which is a good thing... I had lost that for a while, it makes it very hard to be happy without it. Each day leads me closer to each goal I've made for myself; achieving these goals will help me to strive for bigger goals in the future. This year will be about achieving one goal at a time.
"Everything you want, also wants you" ~ Jack Canfield