The Point Is That I'm Worth It

Although I am not looking forward to going through my operation... I do remember the pain involved and that was many, many years ago... I think the last time I had this surgery, I might have been twelve and it took me the whole summer vacation, eight weeks to heal.  I am hoping it doesn't take any longer at this age.  I am really grateful that I finally have the opportunity to have my leg really heal. That will be awesome, I can hardly wait to start exercising and although I may have to take it slow to begin with, I plan to push myself farther than I ever thought I could go.

I have a goal in mind and for this goal to happen... it means I have to decide if I am worth it?  I have decided that I am more than worth it... no more excuses.  This time off is going to be good for me, it's going to be difficult too... I will be on my own a lot, lots of time to think.  I am going to set aside time for exercise once I am clear to do from the doctor... I still have that goal of running a 5K by the end of this year, a friend of mine is going to do it with me and I am going to go zip lining in the summer with another friend from work.

Here is something I want to do in the next year is go to a concert, believe it or not, I have never gone to one.  I didn't have the money to go to things like that when I was younger and then just as I was getting to that time in life where I could do this, I had my beautiful Valentina and of course she became my priority.  She's getting older though and it is time for me to fulfill a few of those items on my bucket list.  Now I just have to find someone that I would like to see in concert...

2013 is looking promising, I finally have some goals, I can see that I am not going to be sad all the time for the rest of my life.  For a long time, I couldn't see that... I am thankful that I am getting focused again.  I am not wasting anymore time.  I am also going to stop letting people frustrate me, I have let that go on for far too long. 

You know something I have learned about myself this year?  I sometimes don't see people for who they really are especially when I am close to them... I see them the way I want to see them.  Lately I am really paying attention to how and what someone says to me.  It is interesting how contradictory people can be... I guess this has frustrated me in the past because I am open and I don't understand saying one thing and doing another.

I suppose everyone has their own way of dealing with their past or their trials and I don't judge them in anyway for that, I guess I have to decide what is really important to me.  I don't believe in blaming my past for my present, I don't believe in holding anger against another person and most of all I don't believe in saying poor me.  Every last one of us has trials, some from our own poor decisions and others out of our control.  I feel that I have the right to be sad when dealing with difficulties but I don't believe in allowing them to take me over.

I lost my focus and I forgot my worth, 2013 is the year I found it again... I won't ever forget again.  I hope everyone remembers their worth too...

I cherish my past, I accept my present and I dream for my future


  1. hope the operation goes smoothly and you'll be able to exercise as soon as you can

  2. Hello Launna:
    We really do hope that your operation will be a real success. As you say here, exercise following any surgery is so important and does, if carried out correctly, ensure a total healing. But only go as far as you are advised.

    Classical music is a great love of ours and so we go to as many concerts, many of which are free, as possible. But whatever your taste in music, hearing it live is so very, very different. So do try and treat yourself.

  3. Thank you Sayid, I am looking forward to exercising and becoming healthy:)

  4. Thank you Jane and Lance, as soon as someone I am interested in hearing is coming here, I am going to go to a concert:)

    I will follow the doctors advise, I will only push myself once I am healed:)

  5. To be honest Launa, I think that being frustrated is a normal state of mind...Nobody is a saint, we all must handle our problems the best we can. Your year sounds promising to me :).

  6. Thank you Petronela, being frustrated in normal but if we can choose to not put ourselves in those situations... we would be less frustrated. I do feel this year is promising as well... time for me to move on:)

  7. Prayers For your operation, and you are totally worth it! And so much more :))

  8. Thank you Maarit... I appreciate the prayers and sweet words :)


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