This makes me wonder how connected we are as people? More like we are too disconnected.... Do we think about what we are saying to each other or are we just on auto pilot, talking to be talking? It has made me think twice about what I say and what feelings it might illicit in the person I am speaking with. I wondered if I should say something... something like, don't you see that what you are talking about is upsetting me? I felt somewhat invisible... I felt like my feelings didn't matter... yet they didn't see.
I don't understand
Everyday I try, I think I can handle this
Then nights like this happen
I wonder how you say some things
Things that make me cry
I wonder if you even know?
Or do you think everything is fine?
It's not fine, I'm still sad
Tonight I questioned what the payoff was?
I didn't like my answer
Either way I lose...
Why do I always have lose?
I don't know which loss is harder...
Which one will be what I can handle..
Neither choice is good
Both are painful at best
I'm happy and at peace with me...
I'm twisted about you
Maybe I really have to do something I've never done
To get different results.
I cherish my past, I accept my present and I dream for my future ♥