Not even my David, although people may think that I feel he is from my posts. He's not, he'd be the first person to tell anyone that he's not perfect. I had him up so high that I never believed I was even worthy of him, I felt like I was lucky that he paid any attention to me at all.
Wow, I really felt so little about myself, I truly deserved David as much as he deserved me. I am as wonderful as he says I am. I told him last night that I was taking him off the pedestal, I said he was relieved that I finally could see him as he is, which I think is a wonderful, kind and loving man who isn't perfect but still pretty wonderful.
My feelings towards David were similar to the characters of Ross and Rachel from the show Friends. Ross had the same insecurities about Rachel and he had her on a pedestal for many years. When he finally took her down and realized she was just a human being, albeit wonderful in his eyes; they ended up having that open and loving relationship. Although it was only a show, it depicted my thoughts that I had about David.
I'm grateful that I finally realized I am special and I deserve to be loved completely. David's my equal, I won't forget that ever again.