Adele - Make You Feel My Love
I felt like Christmas came early last night; David wasn't supposed to be home until Thursday, May 10th. I signed into Facebook last night and he was online; he had just posted that he was home in Alberta. I could barely contain my excitement, I was SO thrilled. I told him how much I missed him, he missed me too. He wanted to know how my cleanse went (he hadn't read his emails yet, ie. the book, lol). I told him it was amazing and that I would do it again in a heartbeat; however I would NEVER give him up again.
I cannot begin to explain how happy I was and am that I can FINALLY talk to my David. For the past 6-7 months he has been the person who has centered me and led me back to the path I've known I should be on. He would say he didn't do anything and that he was only along for the ride. He might not understand that without him encouraging me, I may well have never got on the path. I had tried and failed so many times, I didn't want to disappoint him, because of that I used my inner strength I thought I had lost over the years.
The cleanse showed me that I could do it without David but I DON'T WANT to do it without him. It's just good to know that I can, he does have to go away from time to time with his job. Also, I faced my fear and I proved it wrong, David missed me too, he was happy to talk to me, he's so proud of me for losing the weight for myself. He said he knew I could do it all along.
I'm so lucky and blessed to have him in my life, he led me out of the dark and into the light. He did all of this without judgment and with so much kindness. Too bad we aren't that way with all the people in our lives; it could be so amazing if we were.
Church was amazing for me yesterday, there was a fantastic lesson about how we needed to simplify our lives. I had been thinking the same thing after I had been overwhelmed the past few days. We as women need to prioritize what's important and I can tell you it's not a spic and span home. When we come to the end of our lives we won't regret that; however, we will regret not sharing ourselves or our lives with someone who may have needed us. We were all put on this earth for a higher purpose; we are here to love each other and forgive each other and mostly forgive ourselves. We are NOT here to judge ourselves or each other. Life would be so much simpler if we could learn that.
Oh well, once again, another thing I have to let go and just live my life way the way I know I should. Being the best me is better then judging anyone else or myself. I am NOT perfect, no one is; for if I was, I would not be on this earth; none of us would be.