Now I have to work on chapter 3 for my CPA course tonight because I have another huge assignment due either the day David comes back or right after that. Of course when David gets home, I will want to talk to him and I don't want to be worrying about an assignment. Also Valentina's birthday is on the 15th and I need to organize a little party for her 9th birthday. Plus it is David's birthday and I am making everything for that, which has to be completed this weekend so I can mail it to him, so that it will arrive in time for his special day. I am not all that creative, let me clarify that I get great ideas, I just have trouble bringing them to fruition. When it comes to writing I don't have an issue, I already wrote something special for him, it is just the rest of the gift that is going to take a little of my time.
So, instead of working on everything I need to work on, I am sitting and blogging, it's something I am capable of doing and something I am comfortable with. Time to stretch myself out of my comfort zone and work on my creative side so I can complete David's present. I am just so self critical of my work that I create with my own hands. Although I am completely sure that David will love what ever I make him and he will cherish it because I made it for him.
This quote that I read today made me think of David immediately ~ "If I know what love is, it is because of you." ~ Herman Hesse. I really came to know what love was this last year with him loving me regardless of my quirkiness and crazy past. He made me feel incredibly safe, I wish everyone was able to find that with someone. Feeling safe with someone is near impossible to find, I know and I will always cherish him. I also read this quote and was very moved ~ Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never met.
Earlier today I read a blog that reminded me that I do not have to have people approve of me, I have to be self approved. I don't have to be perfect, I just have to be working on myself to be the best me that I can be. Sometimes we can be harder on ourselves than other people ever thought of being on us. We really expect too much from ourselves in the way of perfection. I don't expect other people to be perfect, why do I expect it from myself? I then read the following quote that I completely agree with and I think it so beautiful: "You come to love not by finding the perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly." ~ Sam Keen