I just had to learn to deal with the challenges with a better attitude. When I was dreading each one that came along, it only became more difficult to handle.
The other night I was doing laundry and when I walked into the kitchen, the floor was flooded with water, the sink had decided to plug up when I was doing the wash. The old me would have freaked out, cried and felt overwhelmed beyond. Instead I just laughed, threw down some towels and thought oh well, the floor needed to be washed.
That flood helped me to finally get started on cleaning, now I feel a little more motivated to get organized. I am seeing a light at the end of the tunnel, there is always a light.... sometimes it difficult to see but I've always known that things and life can change on a dime.
Although I am strong, I am soft inside. I don't always show that to everyone, I don't want people to think that I am weak. When I cry in public it is more because I am frustrated. When I am home and cry, it is because I feel sad inside. Yes... I feel sad inside sometimes; I am normal.... There is nothing wrong with allowing people to see this side of me, it's just embarrassing to let go, when it shouldn't be at all.
We all have a different set of challenges; we should never judge ourselves by what other people have to deal with, we only need to deal with our own things and support each other. Everyone just wants to know they are loved and heard. I know this is what I want, the simple things in life.