When I think about where I was even 6 months ago, just floating along each day with no real purpose... I know that everything that has come into my life has been there to help me to find my purpose. Six months ago I was doing everything I could not to deal with the pain in my life, I thought it was easier to ignore the feelings. That was never true, it was what I told myself so that I could do what I wanted.
Along came David, he challenged me to be my best. He believed only the best of me. No, he doesn't think I'm perfect, lol. Hardly, he just chooses to see the good in me. Once I knew and believed this, I could not turn back to ignoring the truth.
Once I was back on the path to my purpose, I had to make changes. Difficult changes and I had to do them by myself (only because David was taking a course which left him very little time). In this past month there were times I felt so alone but I'm not. Even if David cannot be there for me as much as he wants, I know I'm in his thoughts and heart.
I've come to understand that I had to do this alone, I have to stand on my own two feet. I've relied on everyone else to fix me, take care of me. I'm the only one that can change me, I just had to change my mind. Sounds simple doesn't it but I know it's not when we are in our most difficult challenges. Last night I made a choice to invest in myself and really work on my potential. Am I scared, a little; but not so afraid not to try. We are all here for a purpose, I want to know what mine is so that I can live up to all my potential.
So the topic here is letting go, I had to let go of things that I do to be where I should. The same thing goes for people. That poem is so true: If you love something, set it free, if it comes back, it's yours. If it doesn't it was never meant to be. Letting go of people is the most difficult thing, especially when we love them and know that they are meant to be with us. However; we cannot make choices for other people. That is the hardest thing but the only way.
I'm letting go but I have great faith in the outcome.