Worthiness speaks the language of your soul, mirroring what you believe to be true at the core of your being. Also, until you fully embrace your worthiness, what you deserve cannot come to pass.
I'm laying in bed, pondering all the changes that I've made in the last couple of months. All for the good, not one of them was easy. I suppose change isn't meant to be simple, just worth it as they say.
When I look back on the road I've traveled for many years, I see the lost girl I was. I never gave up though, I always believed. I'm very happy with each step I've taken along the path, seeing that yes I can make it, with hard work and determination, I will succeed. I'm not on this road alone, I have many people who believe in me, praying for me and loving me. I got up and spoke in church today, it was easier than I thought, not that I wasn't nervous because I was;). It really felt good to say what I felt.
I meant each and every word, the path that I was on was scary, I was positive that I was and always would be too unworthy to ever go back to church. Heavenly Father knew better, he gave me David. I never believed that one person could change my whole perspective on life so quickly. There isn't anyone else who could have got through to me, no one I would have believed more. David is and always has been one of the most honest people I have ever known. When he says I am wonderful and amazing, I can't argue with him, he doesn't lie. Since I know he doesn't lie, I could no longer live a mediocre life, I have to step up to the plate and give it my best; live up to my true potential.
I am grateful for so many people who never gave up on me, mostly I am grateful for my Heavenly Father who has loved me all along. He must love me or he never would have placed the right people into my life. People who finally made me see my true worthiness. I'm embracing my worthiness, I want all my blessings. I am so grateful for each and every blessing I have in my life. Mainly I'm grateful for my Heavenly Father, my family, my friends and David.