One thing I have promised myself over the years was to exercise and lose weight. I always start out with good intentions and then I give up allowing myself to fail. There it is, I give up... me... I don't keep a committed promise to myself. It's as if I didn't think I was worthy enough to do this for me. I have changed now, I know that I am worthy of the work it will take to lose the weight.
No more excuses, I am going make a real commitment to myself. First, I found out it takes about 15-20 minutes to walk to Halifax Shopping Center, so I am going to walk over there in the morning to catch the bus for work. Then I am going to work out in the gym at work for at least 30 minutes a day. Once I am comfortable with that, I will add more exercise in the evening. The weather will be great by the time I am comfortable with doing this.
I have already started eating better, more vegetables and fruit. I don't eat to deal with pain now. When I do, I realize it right away and because I do, I can't continue. I have to be present in how I deal with my feelings now, otherwise I will fall back into my old ways and break another promise to myself. That is not me any longer, I have been making one promise after another and keeping each and everyone of them.
I am worth it, we are all worth making a promise to ourselves and keeping it, we just have to take the step. I made that first step tonight.