Focusing My Heart

It's hard to put my words down today, I have been working so hard at being positive and happy, this week has made that great attitude almost impossible to keep lately.  Sometimes when life throws us a loop, it takes massive strength to get through.

David and everyone says I'm strong; this past week I don't feel the least bit strong.  I feel weak, wondering if I'm ever going to feel that happiness that alludes me.  I know from past experiences that it always gets better but this is huge. 

It's so difficult when I have these doubts, they almost drown me.  I feel lost and wishing I could see the light at the end of the tunnel.  There's always a light right?  It seems I need reassurance, which makes me sad, I should have more faith.

I'm going to put my heart and soul into the running club, I have to put it somewhere, my heart doesn't seem to have a purpose.  So, I'm giving it something to focus on, to stop it from feeling the pain it feels right now. Also as soon as I get my bonus I am going to start a 90 day cleanse and the only media I am going to allow myself is blogging and email. 

I'm writing a gratitude/thankful post tonight.  I'm going to write a list throughout the day, whenever I think of something wonderful. I'll post that later tonight.  Blessings really need to be counted to be remembered and recognized.

"Everything you want, also wants you" ~ Jack Canfield


  1. Launna, i will send you soooo much positive power.. one things is for sure: even the most positive persons have to go up and down..main thing is to feel, then we have this power to grow..

    Lots of hugs :)))

  2. Thank you Maarit, I really am working hard on getting the power to grow;)


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