I heard what he said but I didn't take it in, tonight I replayed that conversation and the answer was right there. I always thought it was because of me that it didn't work out. I thought it was my scars or that I was overweight, it had nothing to do with me, it was all to do with him.
I took on the blame for our relationship not working when I didn't do anything wrong. By holding onto the blame, I was unable to replay the conversation that held the key, until tonight.
I'm happy to remember it finally, it helps me to think better thoughts of myself, where I have been so mean to myself lately. I've been least loving to myself, that's going to change.
I don't know how I can be so happy and so sad at the same time. I'm happy to finally have that answer but I'm sad because I have this great desire to share this with my best friend and I can't right now.
Hopefully soon, I really pray.
"Everything you want, also wants you" ~ Jack Canfield